Yeah I know, I haven't written in close to a month and I'm sure anyone that has been following my blog figures I had given up. WRONG!!! Actually this is probably one of the few times I have tried to lose weight on my own and not given up. I'm still fighting the good fight and I am slowly but surely winning. It is almost second nature to me now, this watching what I eat, and I am not struggling like I was in the beginning because a lot of the cravings just aren't there anymore.
Now, that's not to say I don't indulge occasionally people, I am human, but the nagging cravings and feelings of being deprived just are not there this time. I even splurged and had a small bowl of Dryers Drumstick Ice Cream the other night. Yes it was about a quarter of the size I would have eaten in the old days but it was so good and I didn't miss not having the larger portion. I was a little nervous that having the ice cream would make me crave it the next evening, but it didn't. I did have a plan in mind though, that if I found myself wanting more ice cream I would just sub with a low fat yogurt. Luckily I didn't need to do the sub thing because I was full from dinner and I got absorbed in binge watching America's Next Top Model on Hulu Plus so the issue didn't even come up.
I did have a victory yesterday that I have to brag about to you all. Hubby and I decided to take all our garbage to the dump as the garbage room was getting overrun and stinky. I didn't want to wear my holey sweats or my short ( I am still way to self conscious for that yet), but I didn't want to wear my good velour pants either. I have like 5 or 6 pairs of jeans in my bottom drawer from my thinner days that I refused to toss away and spur of the moment I decided to try a pair on. I was prepared for disappointment as most of these are size 18W and right now my other pants are a 22W but I said what the hell, lets see where I am. I pulled on the first pair, and they went right up. I figured ok I got them on but zipping them is going to be impossible because there is no way they will fit. Nope! Victory was mine because I pulled them up and I zipped them so easily! They weren't tight, and they passed the squat test so I knew I wasn't going to bust the butt or thigh seam out if I tried to bend over and pick anything up. I have to tell you I felt pretty good yesterday wearing those capri jeans to the dump lol. Yes, I know a size 18W to a lot of you is still huge and I agree...BUT I haven't gotten my behind into a size 18W for over 2 years so this means that I am doing something right. What a boost to my self esteem to get back into those pants.
Now I did try the other pants on after that and found 1 other pair does fit but the third I can get on, except zipping is impossible. That is alright though, I know I have a long way to go and those jeans will eventually fit. Then I will be blogging about how all my clothes are too big and I have to go shopping for smaller ones! Boy what a great feeling that will be. I do have some regular size 18's not women's size in my closet so those will be next on my radar after I get these last black jeans to zip. It is all going to happen, I just have to take it one day at a time.
The other thing I want to touch on yet again, is portions and the importance of weighing your food. I had a plastic scale in my kitchen. It was a freebie reward for promoting a site and it came in handy because it was better than nothing. The bad thing was it wasn't accurate and I was logging a lot of my food by guessing. It only weighed in grams and it started at 100g so I was constantly trying to convert the grams to ounces by math. I am a product reviewer on Amazon and I was given the opportunity to review a digital kitchen scale. That thing is so awesome and it has changed the way I measure my food and control my portions. It measures pounds, pounds and ounces, ounces, grams, milliliters,and cups in water and milk ( I had no idea they weigh differently). I can put the container on the scale and hit a button. It deducts the weight of the container so that when I put the food into it, it weighs only the food. My weighing has been cut in half by this digital scale because I no longer have to do the math. I have a YouTube video of the scale if you are interested in how it works for getting one for yourself. It isn't expensive and it's almost a must have if you are going to try and lose weight. Kitchen Scale Review . The Weigh Smart Digital Scale is available on Amazon for about $25.00 and I really suggest you pick a digital scale up.
The next thing I am getting in a day or two is a digital bathroom scale. I have been using an old UPS scale that I got from my work a few years ago. It works but again, it is not digital and I have found out, it is not reliable. I weighed myself and from one week to the next I gained 5lbs according to that scale which I know is false. My roommate has a weight watcher's digital scale but that one is old and also unreliable. I got off and on it three times and I got three totally different weights. Truth is I don't know how much weight I have lost and I won't know the truth until I get to the doctor's in June but with my new scale I will hopefully have a way of tracking more accurately in my bathroom until I get back to the doctors. We shall see, but in the meantime depending on which scale you count I have lost either 13 lbs so far or 18. Sure, I want to go with the 18lbs and they way I can get into old pants, I believe that may be the more true weight loss. Either way I am feeling more confident in myself, more energetic, and happier with the way I am going on this.
Rottie
