Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Time for an update on my progress

It has been about 2 months since I posted. I am sure most of you have forgotten me or figured I gave up. NOPE I just haven't had much to report. I went to the doctor in July as I think I already blogged and I was at 251lbs. In the last 2 months I managed to lose another 10 pounds and get to 241. Actually, I did that in the first 6 weeks but was really struggling the last two weeks to get below 240 which was another small goal of mine.

Remember, I try and set a yearly goal of 50lbs and then break it down into two 6 month goals of 25lbs each. Then I break those 25lb goals into smaller goals of 5lbs at a time. 5 lbs is totally doable in my mind and it feels good to celebrate each small goal I meet. I really try not to focus on the big picture because then it sometimes feels discouraging. But anyway, I was struggling to get to the 240 mark and was really getting pissed off because I would almost hit it, then go up a pound or 8 oz then back down. I felt like my body was teasing me. I tried cutting back on my food, and that didn't work plus I was feeling deprived when I did that. It was just a very frustrating 2 weeks.

So, out of the blue I got a phone call about a job that I had applied for two months before. I hadn't heard back so I figured that I was too old and they didn't want me. It was a part time cashier job at our local CVS Pharmacy at minimum wage pay. I have been out of work for 2 years and have been relentless in my pursuit of employment. So, they called me in for an interview and I got the job! Last week I had my new colleague orientation, and I had my first 4 hour shift on Wednesday. It is a very busy job and I am entirely on my feet for 4 to 6 hours depending on my shift. So I jumped on the scale today after a week of work. Lo and behold, it FINALLY DROPPED! I hit the 238.6 mark this morning! Not only did I hit the 240 mark but I went below it. I lost 3 pounds in a week!

So yeah I am pretty stoked this morning. My new small goal now is 235lbs and I am getting closer to my second 25lb goal for the year. I have 14lbs to go to hit my 50lbs by my birthday in January and 3.5 months to do it. I am certain I am going to hit it and might even hit it earlier than that. Maybe my Christmas present to me will be new smaller clothes. We will have to see what happens but it feels like good things are happening to me on many different fronts. New job and a new me for the foreseeable future.

The moral of the story my friends is do not give up your fight. If something isn't working and you are stuck then try something new. Change up your exercise routine, go for a hike, drink more water, dance in the rain or whatever else you can try. If you are watching your food intake, drinking water and exercising you are taking care of you. The rest will follow, but sometimes things just slow down. Eventually it will catch up with you and start moving again.

Rottie

Sunday, August 2, 2015

Trying to give up refined carbs on my journey

This post includes a review of oatmeal that I received for free in exchange for an honest review. All opinions of this oatmeal are my own. 

I have been reading a great book on how my metabolism works and how to get it to optimal performance. It has lots of information about food intolerances and how the thyroid works. Some of the information I have read before, and other bits were brand new. One of the chapters I have read was about cutting out refined carbohydrates. I have heard this before and in fact while on the South Beach Diet, I did in fact cut down not just on refined carbs but ALL carbs. It is a difficult thing to do as I am a bonafide carboholic. I love my breads, pastas, rice, potatoes, corn, and most other things loaded in carbs.

I have decided now to try and I do stress TRY to cut out the unnecessary carbs from my diet. I am going to continue to eat fruit, which we all know contains natural sugars and carbohydrates, because it contains needed fiber and nutrients. I am going to cut the starchy stuff down so less potatoes, more brown rice and bye bye corn on the cob. I am also going to try and have more whole grains in my diet by eating whole grain breads and cereals. I have found a wonderful whole grain hot oatmeal called Umpqua Kick Start and it is really delicious. The first ingredient is whole rolled groats and yes that it GROATS, not oats misspelled. I looked up groats on Wikipedia because I had never heard of it. The definition is as follows, "Groats are whole grains that include the cereal germ and fiber-rich bran portion of the grain as well as the endosperm (which is the usual product of milling)." So those little rolled groats are incredibly good for your body.

I had my first bowl today and I can not stop talking about it. It was so tasty and full of cranberries, blueberries, almonds and sunflower seeds. The different textures combined with the groats really worked in my mouth. It also has a nice cinnamon flavor to it that is not too sweet. This is a non GMO product so I know that it is one of the good ones. I have a video review that I did on YouTube which you will see in a few minutes. Look at  how good it looks even before I add the water. It is really easy to fix too which is nice for those on the go. You can use the microwave but the preferred way and the way I prepared it is just as easy. Just add hot water into the cup just covering the oats, cover and let it steep for 3 minutes. Then just open the cover and enjoy. You will really like the way they taste. You can find them on their website at www.umpquaoats.com  or on Amazon at http://umpqua-oats.myshopify.com/products/kick-start  you will not regret trying this oatmeal. It is that good.

Monday, July 27, 2015

Leg 2 of my journey begins today


So, I went to the doctor today as planned. This was the 6th month of my losing weight journey and I was both excited and nervous. I wanted to show her that I am taking this very seriously, but I was nervous because I wasn't sure if my home scale was in synch with the doctor's scale. When I walked into that office on January 27th 2015 I tipped the scale at 274.5 lbs. That was my wake up call and as you recall the beginning of this trek to become fitter.

Today I walked in and when I got on the scale it read 251.5 lbs. Not the total 25lbs I had hoped for, but a solid  23 lbs down which was great. I have been bouncing between 248 and 253 the last 3 weeks and I am fully confidant that I will hit the 25lb mark or more by my birthday next January. I feel good that I am losing it even if it is in small steps. I am healthier in the way I eat, the way I have tried to exercise, and the way I have upped my water intake. There are some things that I have back slid on since the operation in May and I need to get back on track.

I have to cut the ice cream down again. I have gotten into a habit of eating a bowl of low fat sugar free ice cream every night. I have allowed myself this because I have fooled myself into thinking that it isn't that bad. No, it isn't "that bad" it is 100 calories for a half cup of ice cream and I eat a cup so its 200 calories. But it is 200 calories of something I don't really need. I can have a cup of sugar free jello and that is only 10 calories. Better yet, I can eat a tangerine (35 calories) full of fiber or a cup of non fat yogurt, or not eat anything at all. It isn't that I am hungry, it is that everyone else in the house is indulging and I want to also. So I know I need to get that in check so I can continue to lose.

The other thing is I need to get more active. Getting off the computer and sitting on the deck with my music is not being active. I have been using the excuse that it is too hot to exercise but that has to change. I just need to work out early in the morning or later in the evening when it is cooler and stop being lazy. Those two things are my new goals to accomplish. Stop with the ice cream and up the exercise and change up the time I work out. Once I get those two things under control, I think I will start losing weight again.

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Just a little catch up post

Yeah right lol knowing how I love to ramble, this little post will most likely be a page or more by the time I am done. So....... On May 18th I went into the hospital ER. I had had stomach pains since the previous Friday and decided that they were not gas or food related and I needed to see a doctor. They weren't screaming in distress pains but they were enough to wake me up out of a sound sleep. They started in the center of my stomach near my naval and gradually moved over to the right side of my tummy. My roommate thought perhaps appendicitis as her son had had it, but no one was sure. By Sunday evening, I was starting to run a low grade temperature and was really feeling ill. So off to the emergency room we went
              .                                                                                                                                                 So after a CT scan and blood work and a pee test, they determined that yes, my appendix was not in good shape. It had not ruptured yet but it definitely needed to come out. They admitted me into the hospital at 11pm on Sunday evening with the surgery scheduled at 7am the following Monday morning. Needless to say, I did not get much sleep during the in between hours. Surgery is scary. You are literally putting your life into the hands of strangers and hoping everything turns out alright. The fact that both the surgeon and the anesthesiologist have to go over every possible bad scenario doesn't help your nerves either. By the time they were both done telling me what could go wrong even though the odds were minimal, I was convinced I was a goner on the table. I am not a super religious person, but as I laid in the recovery room waiting to go into the OR I looked up at the ceiling and I whispered " Ok God, I am in Your hands now, please take care of me."
      
                                                                                                                                                                                                                         I got wheeled in and the room is so bright. I took a peek around and I see all these people in gowns and caps like on tv. Everyone is busy getting stuff ready and I see tall shelves encased in glass almost like refrigerator shelves full of god knows what and machines beeping and whirring. Someone came up behind me and I heard a voice telling me that they were going to put something in my IV to relax me. After that, I am told to transfer from the hospital bed to the operating table by rolling and scooting over. I remember the something to relax me kicking my ass at that point and yelling "Whoooooooooooo omg I can feel that now" and everyone in the room cracking up. Then lying on the table and a green rubber mask thing covering my nose and mouth. I remember the dark green color and I remember the smell of rubber. That is the last thing I remember.
                                                                                                                                                                   I heard my name being called and I remember really struggling to get my eyes open. I was back in the recovery room and Ralph was sitting next to me reading a book. It was hard to stay awake and I know nurses were checking my blood pressure and my temp and I had my IV checked several times but mostly I was in a fog and sleeping. They finally put me in a wheel chair and took me back to my hospital bed. I don't remember much of that except that when I got up to get into the bed I started retching. I didn't throw up because there was nothing in my system to throw up, but I couldn't stop the dry heaves for about 10 or 15 minutes. They gave me a nausea pill and it stopped.   
                                                                                                                                                                The rest of that day ( it was 10 am when I was back in my room) I pretty much slept, and watched tv when I was awake. Lunch came and even though I hadn't eaten in almost 24 hours, I didn't touch it. Dinner came and I think I took 4 sips of some awful cream of broccoli soup, and drank a 7 up that Ralph brought me and that was it. Next day breakfast I received a piece and a half of french toast and I couldn't eat more than one half. So, you get the picture, I wasn't eating anything really the first 2 days. They came in on the 2nd day and told me my white blood count went up instead of down and I had to stay in the hospital another day. I was not a happy camper but I really had no choice in the matter. Finally Wednesday I was released and got to come home.
                                                                                                                                                                To say I was happy is an understatement. I had never missed my home so much as I did those three days in the hospital. I was given a bottle of vicodin, and two strong antibiotics which kicked my butt for the week I had to take them, but I was in my own house! Nothing made me happier than being in my own home.
                                                                                                                                                                  Thursday I stepped on the scale thinking that because I hadn't eaten for those 3 days I would have dropped more weight. NOPE! Actually I had gained 8 lbs which really upset me. I mean I didn't eat hardly a bite and I gain weight? How was that possible? Then I stopped to think about it. I had surgery so the muscles were cut, and swollen which meant I had fluid in me and fluid means weight. After another 3 days I got up on the scale again, and this time not only was the 8 that I had gained gone, another 2 were also missing! So, I was up to almost a 28lb loss since the start in January so I was feeling a little proud of myself for that but it was short lived. Because I hadn't eaten in the beginning, I let myself indulge a bit more than I should have. I wasn't measuring my servings, and I was eating more junk than I should. Two weeks after being home, I got on the scale again and saw I had gained back the extra 2 that I lost after surgery, so I was back to square one so to speak.
                                                                                                                                                                    I am now back on track, and being more cautious as to what I am eating and what portion size. I got on the scale today and I have now lost back one of the pounds with one more to go. I have a wedding coming up this weekend which means eating out, and having a few drinks at the reception. It also means I can go swimming in the lake and do more walking around so I'm hoping to keep things in check. I have to decide whether to give my self permission to just eat and drink what I want all weekend, or try and keep things in proportion and stick to the plan. Knowing me, Im probably going to do a little of both. I will let you know. Rottie

Monday, May 25, 2015

Today, I hit my goal! 25lbs down and counting.

I don't even know if I can describe what I am feeling right at this moment! Pride? Oh hell yeah that is in there! Satisfaction? You betcha! Delight? Joy? Yup those too! It just feels so great to set out with a goal and accomplish it! Yes, I still have a long way to go on losing weight and yes, there will be setbacks here and there. Hitting this goal though proves to me that I have the determination not to give up and the drive to keep going! Now, I will be honest and say that being in the hospital for 4 days and being on antibiotics for another 5 most likely contributed to me hitting my goal today, but I was only out 1.5 lbs before my appendix decided to move out anyway. The thing is I have to ride this wave of giddiness and keep plugging forward. If I lost 25lbs by May 25th, a full month ahead of schedule, can I do 50 before Christmas? That remains to be seen but I'm sure as hell going to try.

Saturday, April 18, 2015

Little Bit of This and a Little Bit of That

Yeah I know, I haven't written in close to a month and I'm sure anyone that has been following my blog figures I had given up. WRONG!!! Actually this is probably one of the few times I have tried to lose weight on my own and not given up. I'm still fighting the good fight and I am slowly but surely winning. It is almost second nature to me now, this watching what I eat, and I am not struggling like I was in the beginning because a lot of the cravings just aren't there anymore.

Now, that's not to say I don't indulge occasionally people, I am human, but the nagging cravings and feelings of being deprived just are not there this time. I even splurged and had a small bowl of Dryers Drumstick Ice Cream the other night. Yes it was about a quarter of the size I would have eaten in the old days but it was so good and I didn't miss not having the larger portion. I was a little nervous that having the ice cream would make me crave it the next evening, but it didn't. I did have a plan in mind though, that if I found myself wanting more ice cream I would just sub with a low fat yogurt. Luckily I didn't need to do the sub thing because I was full from dinner and I got absorbed in binge watching America's Next Top Model on Hulu Plus so the issue didn't even come up.

I did have a victory yesterday that I have to brag about to you all. Hubby and I decided to take all our garbage to the dump as the garbage room was getting overrun and stinky. I didn't want to wear my holey sweats or my short ( I am still way to self conscious for that yet), but I didn't want to wear my good velour pants either. I have like 5 or 6 pairs of jeans in my bottom drawer from my thinner days that I refused to toss away and spur of the moment I decided to try a pair on. I was prepared for disappointment as most of these are size 18W and right now my other pants are a 22W but I said what the hell, lets see where I am. I pulled on the first pair, and they went right up. I figured ok I got them on but zipping them is going to be impossible because there is no way they will fit. Nope! Victory was mine because I pulled them up and I zipped them so easily! They weren't tight, and they passed the squat test so I knew I wasn't going to bust the butt or thigh seam out if I tried to bend over and pick anything up. I have to tell you I felt pretty good yesterday wearing those capri jeans to the dump lol. Yes, I know a size 18W to a lot of you is still huge and I agree...BUT I haven't gotten my behind into a size 18W for over 2 years so this means that I am doing something right. What a boost to my self esteem to get back into those pants.

Now I did try the other pants on after that and found 1 other pair does fit  but the third I can get on, except zipping is impossible. That is alright though, I know I have a long way to go and those jeans will eventually fit. Then I will be blogging about how all my clothes are too big and I have to go shopping for smaller ones! Boy what a great feeling that will be. I do have some regular size 18's not women's size in my closet so those will be next on my radar after I get these last black jeans to zip. It is all going to happen, I just have to take it one day at a time.

The other thing I want to touch on yet again, is portions and the importance of weighing your food. I had a plastic scale in my kitchen. It was a freebie reward for promoting a site and it came in handy because it was better than nothing. The bad thing was it wasn't accurate and I was logging a lot of my food by guessing. It only weighed in grams and it started at 100g so I was constantly trying to convert the grams to ounces by math. I am a product reviewer on Amazon and I was given the opportunity to review a digital kitchen scale. That thing is so awesome and it has changed the way I measure my food and control my portions. It measures pounds, pounds and ounces, ounces, grams, milliliters,and cups in water and milk ( I had no idea they weigh differently). I can put the container on the scale and hit a button. It deducts the weight of the container so that when I put the food into it, it weighs only the food. My weighing has been cut in half by this digital scale because I no longer have to do the math. I have a YouTube video of the scale if you are interested in how it works for getting one for yourself. It isn't expensive and it's almost a must have if you are going to try and lose weight. Kitchen Scale Review . The Weigh Smart Digital Scale is available on Amazon for about $25.00 and I really suggest you pick a digital scale up.

The next thing I am getting in a day or two is a digital bathroom scale. I have been using an old UPS scale that I got from my work a few years ago. It works but again, it is not digital and I have found out, it is not reliable. I weighed myself and from one week to the next I gained 5lbs according to that scale which I know is false. My roommate has a weight watcher's digital scale but that one is old and also unreliable. I got off and on it three times and I got three totally different weights. Truth is I don't know how much weight I have lost and I won't know the truth until I get to the doctor's in June but with my new scale I will hopefully have a way of tracking more accurately in my bathroom until I get back to the doctors. We shall see, but in the meantime depending on which scale you count I have lost either 13 lbs so far or 18. Sure, I want to go with the 18lbs and they way I can get into old pants, I believe that may be the more true weight loss. Either way I am feeling more confident in myself, more energetic, and happier with the way I am going on this.

Rottie